true happiness

defination: a) losing your weight from 87kg to 84kg. b) your 36size pants dont fit you at all. c)your 34 waist trousers seem lose. d) people look at you and say 'man you look really shaped up'.

each indecision brings its own delay
and days are lost lamenting over lost days
what ever you can do or think you can do, begin it
for boldness has magic, power, and genius to it

 

i read it somewhere; and i don’t agree with it.

i must admit i’ve made lots of bold/rash decisions in life and i’ve not seen any magic or power or genius to it. decisions that matter most must be made after putting lots of thoughts to it. and once the decision has been made, lobbying should also be started to make things work out in your favor.

dear fucking stalker

I’m really flattered; to tell the least of my feelings. At first you gave me a good ego boost. But now, it’s kind of irritating.  You go around everywhere disclosing my secrets. You dig out stuff I do and put up all sort of allegations against me. Can’t really say I hate this grandeur of yours; in fact, it’s so nice of you to do that. While you are trying your best to denigrate my character; I’ll tell you what, I’m a bit thankful to you for helping me realize my true friends.  Those who don’t really trust me, give into the gossip you spread, and that’s when I know where my relationship with them stands. And I don’t give half a fuck to your vile jabbers.

Apart from that, I must admit I’m a little pissed off at your weenie ways.  I don’t understand your fucking fascination with me.  You’d never get anything from this stunt you’re pulling. Does it give you some satisfaction when you defile my reputation? Slandering my image? Putting up false accusations?  Do you feel content in your heart assuming you’ve given me a lesson to learn? Is that really the objective of your tiny existence? You need to widen your horizons and roam around a little, maybe that’d give you some fresh air that you need to get off of my tail. Be the free spirit you were born with and stop lurking around rummaging my secrets.  Or probably you just need to wank a little less so that your mind veers in some other paths too.

 

 

just wondering...

since i’ve been blogging via email and not having web access to blogger.com, i wonder if the company’s disclaimer would also be appearing to all my posts. if it is, then it reaaallly sucks! sorry for the mess. i’ll clean it up when i’m back in karachi after a couple of days! hmmpzz sad.

blower's daughter

and so it is

just like you said

it would be

life goes easy on me

most of the time

 

~ ‘blower’s daughter’ by daniel rice. my favorite song these days. ost closer

somebody saveeeeee me...

heheeh… i think i’m obsessed with smallville. i’ve watched the first season and intend to watch the second season starting tonight.  initially i thought it was the typical superman story where he goes off saving cats trapped on trees but as the plot thickens, the series is getting fun to watch. the best part of this series is the cool sound track. i never thought i’d admit it, but the first season of smallville really is worth it.

the mourning day

14^th august: natives wore black dresses to express their grievances and black flags fluttered on their roof tops. 58 years back pakistan came into existence and their lives became full of miseries. i’m not commenting on their rightness in their stance, but just implying that there are millions of people here who absolutely abhor this nation. i’m also one of them, yet still living and breathing here. i guess that makes me a hypocrite.

 

so it is..

yesterday night was too good, mainly because i slept late again and watched a wonderful movie that pumped up some strange inspiration in me. i’m here at work but still watching the movie on my laptop for the second time. hehe. here is my favorite scene… a breakup… lol. sad you cant have the video/audio here…i’m just typing the text! the husband starts off when he finds out his wife has been sleeping with someone else…

 

husband: ‘is he a good fuck?’

wife: ‘don’t do this.’

‘just answer the question, is he good?’

‘yes!’

‘better than me?’

‘different!’

‘better?’

‘gentler.’

‘what does that mean?’

‘you know what I mean.’

‘tell me.’

‘no.’

‘i treat you like a whore?’

‘sometimes’

‘why would that be?’

‘i’m sorry, you are…’

‘DON’T SAY IT! DON’T YOU FUCKIN’ SAY IT! “you are too good for me”, i am, but don’t say it. you are making the mistake of your life!! you are leaving me because you believe you don’t deserve happiness, but believe me you do, anna!

……

did you have bath because you had sex with him? so you wouldn’t smell of him? so you’d feel less guilty? how do you feel?’

‘guilty’

‘did you ever love me?’

‘yes’

<him crying being emotionally wreck.…>

husband: ‘did you do it here?’

wife: ‘no.’

‘why not?’

‘do you wish we did?’

‘just tell me the truth.’

‘yes, we did it here.’

‘where?’

‘there’

‘on this?’, pointing towards the couch.

‘we had our first fuck on this. did you think of me?’

<silence>

‘when?’

<no reply>

‘when did you do it here?’

<no reply again>

‘ANSWER THE QUESTION!’

‘this evening.’

‘did you come?’

‘why are you doing this?’

‘cuz’ i want to know.’

‘yes, i came.’

‘how many times?’

‘twice.’

‘how?’

‘first he went down on me and then we fucked…’

‘who was where?’

‘i was on top then he fucked me from behind’

‘and that’s when you came the second time?’

‘god, why is this sex so important to you?’

‘CUZ’ I’m A FUCKING CAVEMAN!! did you touch yourself while he fucked you?’

‘yes.’

‘you wanked for him?’

‘sometimes’

‘and he does?’

‘WE DO EVERYTHING ThAT PEOPLE WHO HAVE sEX DO!’

‘do you enjoy sucking him off?’

‘yes’

‘do you like his cock?’

‘I LOVE IT’

‘Do you like him cumming on your face?’

‘YES’

‘What does his cum taste like?’

‘IT TASTES JUST LIKE YOURS BUT SWEETER’

‘That’s the spirit. Thank you. Thank you for your honesty. Now fuck off and die. You fucked up slag!’

 

lololol... i know i have a lot of free time at hand. guess the movie!

whew

a presentation today all drained me up. thank goodness it’s done and I am back to my normal sluggish self! :D yaaay.

today i intend to watch the movie ‘closer’. and then chill and sleeeeeeeeep long till morning.

i don’t know, but whoever said ‘all the goods things in life are either unethical or immoral’ defiantly doesn’t know the pleasssure in sleeeeeping after a hard day’s work.

late sleeping

i love and hate late-sleeping. love it because there is no substitute time of late night serenity where only you can be yourself with your thoughts. And hate it because I couldn’t wake up early for work. I woke up good 2 hours late and that too by the phone call of my boss. lol.

but anyways, last night was wonderful even though i wouldn’t mistake keeping myself awake till so late again. kept listening to new songs; organized my laptop harddrive data; read old chat logs; wrote the next section of my book; and let my memories drown into the past. and when i finally slept, my dreams were like alice in wonderland…lol.

all aces

i’m totally in love with tennis now. my coach said i should also concentrate on other shots as well rather than just on my ace serves. lolz. whatever. as far as i am winning points, i cant seem to care much. besides, its all about winning! who plays for the sake of good sportsmanship here anyways.

apart from tennis, my other passions are tennis.. tennis….. and tennis. so i guess that’s it… the new love of my life (till i start losing badly! as usual! hehe).

back

“It is unfortunate that the eyes have lids but the ears don't”

 

i’m back to work. sad. lol.

munch on this thought for a while till i think of a proper blog theme for the month of august! :)